Quernzy Rant

Mad. Yes this is one of the few times you will ever see me mad, so cherish it for the madness it is.

I am starting with my love/hate relationship with LA. I wanted to say I hated it, but that’s not true. I don’t completely hate it. There are so many things I love about it. But the hate part of the relationship is growing and makes me miss NY ever so much more. Although, I have a love/hate relationship with NY as well!

LA is finally living up to what I originally expected it to be like. It fooled me from the beginning, but has slowly revealed itself to be the monster that it is. LA fools you into thinking it’s this magical place. but you have to work so hard to keep up that magic.

What I’m hating right now……if you can’t be real and say what you mean; Mean what you say; Don’t intend to follow through with what you feel or what you say you feel; Then I don’t want to deal with it. Don’t ask to ‘know me’ until you can prove that you know yourself. I’m disappointed in general. Disappointed that some are always on the search for something better and they can’t decide to enjoy what they have and enjoy what’s right in front of them. And I’m not talking about love, although it does apply. Just life in general.

Now I am desperately fighting the cynic. (“back, back!”) but the whip and cage helps. I refuse to give in to the cynicism this town creates. I will not let it be. I will put up a fight. But man some people! They make the fight so grand and ongoing, it’s amazing. Need to start training at Krav Maga just to keep up.

Yes it is really hard not be cynical in this town and in this business. It is so hard. But I have to find the balance of trust and cautiousness. I can’t give in to thinking that everyone will screw me over in my personal and professional life, because then it really will happen. I need to find that balance.

K. so that’s the end of my rant. Thanks for listening.